Living As If My Days Are Numbered
Life is just too short to be rude to people you don’t know. Its too short to be passive aggressive instead of direct. It is too short to hold a grudge, it is too short to ignore opportunity, and it is way too short to wish it was all over.
Why let other people tell you what you should do with the rest of your days? Why ignore the ones you love in order to serve the ones you don’t?
I want the courage to live a life true to myself instead of living the life other people expect of me.
What is stealing your time? Maybe it’s an activity. Maybe it’s a person. Determining what ‘it’ is doesn’t mean that it’s something or someone bad! What you need to determine is what and who pours the most significance in your life.
For example: I love escapism. Movies, books, shows, anything really that gives me the opportunity to go into a different world. I write fiction on the side, for goodness sake – so it’s definitely something I value. But there are more important things in my life than a good movie.
My family. The love of my life. My true friends. My health. My sense of adventure. My freedom.
These are ALL things that hold so much more weight than a Netflix binge-watch session EVER could.
Since making a decision to live my life like my time is truly limited, I have started to notice the things that made me truly happy. I stopped focusing so much on the things that were mindless – I began to focus more on spending quality time with the people I loved the most and making fun memories rather than avoiding them. The trivial stuff just doesn’t matter anymore.
Life is so full of challenges, wins, and incredible adventure. I absolutely refuse to miss it.
My life can’t be just work, school, and study. It can’t. I no longer care how many people I can ‘impress’ with the amount of jobs I hold, the workload I bring home, or the paycheck I receive. It can’t be only about the money. I will not sacrifice the things I love in order to maintain an impression other people could have of me.
Because I can drive a fancy Lexus, carry a Michael Kors handbag, and pose for as many social media pictures as I want. But who really cares?
When I meet my Maker, and I look back on my life, I never want to say the words, “I wish I had the courage to live a life true to myself instead of living the life other people expected of me.”
Food for thought.
Your friend, Jenni xo